Sancho Panza
Mere hours before I sat down to type this my second dog passed away. It was just as the fireworks for fourth of July finished, so did his heart. He was a beautiful Tibetan Spaniel & Pomeranian mix. I had gotten him from the sketchy pet store shop in my mall 9 years ago. I remember how tiny he was in my hand as I sat him down on the counter top of the store I worked at. He witnessed the passing of my first dog gizmo and he really grew up quickly from there.
I think its easy to wish I had spent more time with him. Been more aware of his every illness or just watch him like a hawk in general to protect him from whatever came our way. A lot did come our way though. He survived through it all and as more dogs showed up in our family he made room for them happily.
Sancho was by far the best of them. He was a real stubborn good boy. He lead the family of dogs proudly and ultimately a little gay. He always begged, barked and bullied but he was cute so he got away with most of it. He was a really weird dog, with strange allergies and illnesses showing up through out his life. In the end the deck was stacked against him.
I will always remember his bark, the way he snored, the tongue that would always hang out of his mouth. I will always remember him, just as I will always remember my first boy gizmo. They are off somewhere playing once more, running gleefully through grass. I know in my heart that they are waiting for us wherever they are. I wish I could reach them, touch them. Tell them how much I miss them and love them. Scratch their backs and tummies and play with the hair around their ears. My best boys are gone from this plane of existence, but they are off to a better place, waiting for the rest of the family.
I imagine it will be quite some time before I manage to see them, but I am writing it here and proudly letting the universe know just how much Sancho Panza was loved, man was he loved. It must be known just how much he meant to everyone in my life. I witnessed today the universe send you off with grace. I hope all the gods both the good one and the bad ones feed you a treat on your way. A toast to be had in your honor, for sure.
Sancho Panza, mi panzon, mi vida, mi babe, I will always love you, forever. Gizmo will take care of you from now on, and when we meet again, you must let me know all the places we must go. All the worlds we will conquer.
Te amo so much my beautiful boy