Looking Forward
you’ll find me just past the sunset, where light loses its nerve where gold turns to rust and the forgotten rot in peace. where the wild ones used to dance before life wore them down and they broke their teeth on nightmares and toxic love.
I was never perfect more like a fight that ended in separation. something cosmic and fucked something born from a bet. a punchline that fell flat.
you think you feel my warmth? maybe. could be me or could be the whiskey or the shadow of something that once mattered to somebody. I kiss my demons like it’s all I have left. hold tight like the world’s ending and somehow it never does.
they told me I was worthless and I bought it. hell, I still buy it but I made worthless bleed. I made it howl I made it chant my name like the final prayer in an empty church.
sometimes I slip into your thoughts like a dream you wish you’d forgotten. like that metal taste in your mouth right after impact. I’m not haunting you. I just need somewhere to crash.
never owned a place just bad timing and that kind of laugh that splits your ribs and sounds like your mother crying into a towel.
I ate the past and threw it back up in every language they forgot to fear. I made old gods stutter and young ones weep. I found prayer where even silence gave up. called it magic. called it mine.
so how does this finish? with me? maybe. or maybe it doesn’t finish. maybe it just keeps turning like a game with no winners left. toward a place where everything and nothing get drunk together and forget why they even cared.